An update in 2019

I've updated the gameDB section a bit. Now you can filter based on console (SNES, NES, GEN, etc.) and type (Game, Peripheral, etc.), rather than relying on the fuzzy search, which would often find things that didn't match your actual intent ("nes" catching all NES games, plus also anything with "nes" in its title). Only I may find this interesting, but it's one step to that thing feeling less like a nightmare.

Probably one thing I ought to do is add a flag for if the game listed is physical or digital, as I'd like to start doing more capsule reviews of games, but the gameDB is really only envisioned for physical games (since half of the data is stuff like if I dumped the game and checked its board, and at some point I'm going to start organizing them by bins). I'm writing this down here because I just thought of it, but I should really make an issue at..., which has been moved from GitLab to Gitea, because GitLab was getting way too beefy for my occasional usage. So that happened recently too.

Figures, 201703 Edition

aka "Friends don't let friends get into anime"

For the last year or so I've been building a collection of anime and game figures. This last month I've filled in the collection a bit, moved my display case upstairs (where there's more room), and worked on the lighting and presentation a bit. I figured it was a good time to take pictures of some of this stuff.

Please enjoy.

The search for Eden

There is a bizarre unease when you've done something you know is both absolutely right and wholly irrational, a sense that while you may forget the act, you will never forget the meta-act, your choice to damn all sensibility and indulge. This is a short story about how I bought E.V.O.: Search for Eden, a SNES game from 20 years ago that I basically already owned, for $150. It's probably a story everyone relates to.

Kind of.

The patient
I seriously considered tagging this 'explicit'

This post was actually supposed to just be about restoring the absolutely shitty cart I bought, obsessing even further about this ridiculous lark of mine, but in the end it came to be about why this apparently made sense.

In 1990, a Japanese game developer by the name of Almanic Corporation (eventually Givro Corporation, now nonexistent) released 46 Okunen Monogatari ~The Shinka Ron~ (literally, "4.6 Billion Year Story: The Theory of Evolution"), a game I never played for a system I never owned. Two years later Enix published Almanic's follow-up, 46 Okunen Monogatari: Harukanaru Eden e ("4.6 Billion Year Story: To Distant Eden"), for the Super Famicom, the game eventually reaching the West as E.V.O.: Search for Eden. It's a silly game, a fantastical mix of evolution and biology, platforming and RPG. You play as one life-form, traveling through the ages under the guidance of Gaia, evolving from a fish to potential bird or mammal combinations, along the way making decisions like "I need a better horn, so I'm going grind for a bit and eat these baby lizards until I get enough Evolution Points to buy a better horn. And then maybe I'll grow a longer neck and get some sweet-ass wings." In the end, you prove your genetic worth and herald a new age for the planet, and also become Gaia's mate or something? It's a bit strange.

It's a pretty good game, and certainly distinctive, a shining example of the weird, magnificent stuff we got during the SNES era.

Anyway, E.V.O. is a game my mom must have rented for me a dozen times, my young self never good or dedicated enough to beat it, but always enamored enough to marvel at all the combinations of bodies and jaws and fins and horns and legs and so on that I wanted to play through it again. The game is a bizarre, near-surreal experience that even as a kid I appreciated like all novel and inexplicable things I'd managed to find. I imagine I begged her to buy it for me, and if the present day is any indication, she probably tried and couldn't find it. If I knew then what I know now, I probably would have demanded we find it one way or another.

You see, I didn't want to pay $150 for a SNES game — just the cartridge, specifically — that was pretty good but not exactly the shining paragon of its era. I had to. The game, bizarre and niche, had a smaller run, and is the kind of game idiot collectors (like myself) hang on to once they own it, the conversation piece they drag out when talking about video game madness, the thick, gooey nectar of nostalgia that one plays at least once a year, reminiscing on a childhood lost.

The cleaned up cart

This is of course not unusual. I imagine most veterans of Media have their tangible items — fancy movie editions, first edition books of the classics, voluminous art collections or movie posters or vinyl records or whatever. Other games commonly exist in this realm too — Earthbound, for example, is another game I've lost and will one day own again. "This, The Legend of Zelda, is the first Nintendo game I ever owned, and it changed my life," and so on.

Reclaiming these symbols, these trophies, is hard to justify. What have I bought, really, other than an antiquated plastic and silicon delivery mechanism for a couple megabytes of data? It's ridiculous, honestly, an element of ridicule, to think of everything I could spend time acquiring — physical or mental or spiritual — instead of silly games about out-evolving a shark.

Memory is a strange thing. I believe heavily in subjective interpretations of the world, and following from that is an admission that one's recollection (or lack thereof) changes their truth. There are beautiful, magnificent memories I have surely forgotten, people lost to my mind, experiences never recallable but that can never be truly novel, either. Is there much else to identity than this stuff, being able to conjure up again one's roots? This, honestly, is the kind of stuff that keeps me up at night, wondering if ephemeral memory changes me when it escapes.

I guess this isn't really foreign to anyone. This is why we photograph, we journal, we film. Why we keep trinkets around.

That brings us back to 46 Okunen Monogatari: Harukanaru Eden e. This quest of mine has been chewing at my mind for over a year, and last year I caved to my base nostalgia and game collecting craves, and bought the Japanese version of E.V.O., the otherwise identical 46 Okunen Monogatari: Harukanaru Eden e. I wanted to play the game on a real SNES again, with real hardware and a real controller in my hand, so I picked up this foreign facsimile of what I wanted to recall. I played it, said "yes, this is definitely the game I played with different language," conquered the gameplay for the first time (in Japanese!) and then put it away. It wasn't the same. E.V.O. represented something for me beyond a game, lacking it still felt like a hole, something I could only rely on my unreliable memory to keep as part of my identity.

And that's the story of how I spent multiple new games' worth of money on a stickered-up, etched-into, grody-as-hell 21+ year old game, a couple lunches more on a replacement label, junk games to use as replacement shells, and security screw tools to crack this bounty open. The story of spending an hour scraping a NFL Quarterback Club '96 label off a donor cart and gouging gunk out of the gross E.V.O. shell's screw holes just to have a nice cartridge to look at.

The story of rejecting the ephemeral.

grody cart donor cart fun insides of a SNES cart much less-grody cart

Madness via Vita

I was talking about all the Vita games I have coming up and made a list. Thought I should probably reproduce it here, for posterity's sake and to see if I get anywhere near accomplishing any of it.

This year I've beaten, what, Sorcery Saga, Ys: Memories of Celceta, Danganronpa, Persona 3 Portable, and Final Fantasy X HD so far? Not bad at all. Here's the list of stuff I have and want to complete:

  • Demon Gaze (almost done)
  • Mind Zero (early, might just restart to do it for real because it's literally maybe an hour in, probably next game)
  • Final Fantasy X-2 (handful of hours in)
  • Monster Monpiece (early, usually just doing a battle or two in the margins before dinner/sleep/whatever)
  • Project Diva f (third time playing the game, slowly maybe getting around to platting it in the margins?)
  • The Walking Dead Season 2 (need to start)
  • Conception II (handful of hours in, got bumped by more interesting stuff (not that I don't like it))
  • Luftrausers (I doubt I'll "beat" this but I would like to see a blimp some time)
  • Deception IV (might play some time)
  • Soul Sacrifice Delta (I dunno, might play some time)

And here's stuff I either have and have put off for the near future, or are upcoming/preordered:

  • Danganronpa 2
  • Senran Kagura Shinovi Versus
  • Project Diva F 2nd (I have the import, haven't played it much, might just wait until the NA release)
  • Akiba's Trip
  • XBlaze Code: Embryo
  • BlazBlue: Chrono Phantasma (going to do story mode on Vita I think)
  • Atelier Rorona Plus (I've started Totori, but won't resume it until I play Rorona, now that it's coming out)
  • Atelier Totori Plus
  • Atelier Meruru Plus
  • Hyperdimension Neptunia Producing Perfection
  • Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth1
  • Freedom Wars
  • Arcana Heart 3: Love Max!!!!!
  • Axiom Verge if we get that this year?
  • Some other indies I probably forgot about

I can't hold all these Vitas.

New site and everything

Finally got up my article about my favorite games of 2013, thus launching this site and everything. Still working on little updates for Sorcery Saga and Ys: Memories of Celceta, which I've finished. Moving on to Persona 3 Portable now, hoping to get it beat at least once before Danganronpa launches in a month.

Yup. That's an update.

My games of 2013

Playing games is probably my third most common activity, right after going to work and sleeping. I play a shitload of them, and wish I had time to play more. I also write an awful lot about games in various places, many of which fairly ephemeral in nature and not easily discoverable by other people in any event, so for a while I've been thinking about collecting some of my ramblings somewhere.

So, I decided that I would kick off this site, the 500th attempt at a place where I write things, with a post about what I loved from 2013. Here's a bunch of those games. It is in no particular order, and is what I was playing in 2013, not necessarily what actually came out in 2013. You can pretend it's a Game of the Year list, though, I won't mind.

Persona 4 Arena

I have a deep love-hate relationship with fighting games. Mostly on the love side, but every time I get into one, I eventually get frustrated with my lack of professional-level skills in the game and let it drop. After I played Persona 4 Golden extensively (spoiler alert: more on that at the bottom), my mom got me Persona 4 Arena and I went in pretty hard on that in 2013. As would be expected of an ArcSys x Atlus collaboration, it combines real fighting game chops with a Persona story.

persona 4 arena naoto

On paper, there's not much interesting to say about the game on a general level. P4A is a more accessible BlazBlue, a very solid "anime" fighter, with some decent to good story mode stuff by the Atlus side. Much of the Persona 4 warm fuzzies live on in P4A, and it's pretty goddamn fun to play fighting games using the investigation team.

What makes the game noteworthy for me is that it is the first fighting game I took to online ranked matches for and kept with it. After a lot of practice I decided to main Naoto; I hit the wikis and studied her normals and specials, I crawled up the ladder, made it to what I'd classify as "not totally shitty", frauded my way to B+ for a while, and then let the game slip and now I only play it here and there. But I still love it. I bought a stick to attend a couple tourneys (but I chickened out), I ignited in near rage after a couple stupid drops online, I let adrenaline rushes of a near win send me into a trembling, jittery mess, I burned out the A on my stick to the point that I had to get replacement buttons, and then I used that as an excuse to get some different-colored buttons to jazz up my stick a bit.

It's just, fuck, I love fighting games. They're the best. And one that pulls at my love for Persona 4 is the goddamned double best.

I don't know if I'll ever go to a tournament to play, but I still play online with the gang, and we have great serious sparring events. Even if I'm never tournament-viable, I have a hell of a time pretending I'm at that level, and it's great.

Zero Escape: Nine Hours, Nine Persons, Nine Doors

After sleeping on the game for years, I finally bothered trying 999 and fell in love with it. It combines visual novels, room escape games, and X-Files-level fringe science and myth into one wonderful little game about murder. The core game, itself presented as the Nonary Game, is interesting enough — you're trapped in a game with other mysterious characters, and to survive you have to solve logic-n'-such puzzles to progress through the game. This was all pretty cool, but what really did it was the game's final chapter, where, without spoiling anything, all the shit hits the fan and the game's metaplot unravels.

On paper it would have just been an interesting game, but two elements put 999 on this list: the fringe science topics sprinkled throughout the narrative of the game that made for great Wikipedia fodder, and the game's striking final sequence in the true ending. I won't spoil a thing about the ending, but it uses the DS in an extremely interesting way, and the imagery and background music send fond chills down my spine to this day.

Additionally, the game tiptoes the line of gore while mostly avoiding showing any actual gore, instead relying on vivid language to describe the horrible ways people have died in the game, and that's pretty cool.

Zero Escape: Virtue's Last Reward

virtue's last reward

Much of what I just said about 999 can apply to VLR. The narrative from the first game is stronger, enhanced, and made even more insane. Many of the concepts of the first game are refined in the second. Despite being, in part, a set up for the third game of the trilogy, Virtue's Last Reward still tells a number of compelling stories through its characters. The story is less directly dark than the murder-game-focused 999, but there's still plenty of "whoa, that [REDACTED] is fucking terrifying", or "[REDACTED]'s story is so sad". And, of course, it features even more room escape puzzles.

A particularly nice element in VLR, over 999, was that the pseudo-science stuff in the first game, as cool as it is, was replaced by more hard science and philosophy. To call out some of them would be borderline spoilers just by their nature, but suffice it to say that, as you can see to the right, topics like Schrödinger's cat are played with in the story.

In the end, 999 and VLR are both great companions to each other. Both are strong games with great stories, and they each have a pretty bumping, yet pensive at times, soundtrack. Both are lovely games, and it's fun just letting the mind wander over the theories and meta-plot of the series so far. I cannot wait for the third game.

Hatsune Miku: Project Diva f

I am not the least bit ashamed to admit that I love the Project Diva games, very Japanese rhythm games based on Vocaloids, synthesized (and for the games and media, personified) singing voice software. The headlining Vocaloid Hatsune Miku is a legitimate pop idol in Japan despite being a virtual character, and that's just so crazy, it's great. There are some elements to this game that can be safely ignored, such as basically all of the weird hanging out simulator Diva Room, but at the core it's rhythm game heaven.

What I really love about the games, though, is that they are so goddamn saccharine. It's impossible to be sad or angry while playing the games. Even the sadder, moodier songs are still so much fun that they are a perfect cure for any malaise.

I imported Project Diva f from Japan for Vita when it came out, got the PS3 game from my mom, and am likely going to again import the sequel from Japan when it comes out for Vita in a couple months.

The Walking Dead

The emotional impact of leading Lee and Clementine through a game that, frankly, is simplistic even by adventure game standards makes up for any criticism I could have of the game. Through five episodes and a set of bonus mini-episodes, Season One of Telltale's latest opus led me into such a pensive funk that I spent an evening contemplating the message behind its themes. And god damn, that ending, I get weepy every time.

Putting aside arguing about what makes a "real" game, The Walking Dead is an exemplary example of the West doing storytelling with a video game. Character driven story, with just enough decision points and gameplay hints that made my actions gnaw at my conscience. So nice I played through it twice.



You dive and you kick. If you get kicked, you lose. Every round of Divekick is the last few seconds of those tense Street Fighter matches where both sides are at no health and both players know that one wrong move, one smart read, one incorrectly timed jump or bad position will be the difference between victory and defeat. The depth of the game is not in knowing combos, but being able to assess opponents and react accordingly, because if you don't, you will lose.

Divekick delivers one experience — quick, intense matches where you can feel the stress building with each committed action. This is the neatest part of the game, not what it offers, but what is left after it takes so much away from standard fighting games. Once you know your character, your entire strategy is to use your tools against your opponent. When you lose, you can point to your one misread or ill-advised action that hung you. When you get trounced by an opponent, it's not because they knew better combos, but because they knew your play better than you did.

The game's accessibility and distilling of fighting game fundamentals are clever enough to excuse the simplistic graphics, but even the simple sprites and basic animations speak well to Divekick's nature — it moves fast and offers few distractions from getting down to the business of frauding real life opponents. The story mode is barebones and the real game is playing against real people locally or online, but that's where it shines — it's great for getting a bunch of friends together over some drinks and having fun fighting each other.

Divekick is hype.

Honorable Mentions

The following games are all those that I enjoyed, but didn't get to finish, or just quite didn't make the cut of what I think of when I think of my games for the year, or whatever. They deserve to be called out, though, so...

  • Papers, Please — the game perfectly captures an atmosphere of totalitarianism and being a mere cog in an oppressive bureaucracy, and is fun, even as it gets kind of soul-crushing to play.
  • Dragon's Crown — a great marriage of beat 'em up gameplay, fighting game-esque mechanics, RPG progression, and a striking, beautiful art style.
  • Tearaway — I loved the hell out of this game, I just didn't have much to say. It is gorgeous, has some great ... acid folk? music, and delights in making the player feel like part of the game. The papercraft is as fun as being prodded into making stupid faces as you see yourself in the sun.
  • Velocity Ultra — a great little top-down shooter, it combines shooter sensibilities with some very tight execution challenges.
  • Resogun — the best evolution of Defender you are likely to ever play, this has been my favorite game on PS4 so far, and it looks fucking amazing.
  • Corpse Party: Book of Shadows — pretty cool horror visual novel, they turned the gore and VN elements up compared to the first game and there's some really unsettling shit in it. Hopefully we get the next game for Vita.

And finally, my favorite game of the year...

Persona 4 Golden

persona 4 golden

Persona 4 Golden, jesus christ I love this game.

There are games that resonate with you so completely that they are unthinkably replayable, that no matter where the industry goes in current-gen or next-gen or next-next-gen you will always cherish the memory of and think "yeah, I could sit down and play that again," and for me Persona 4 Golden is that game. I have over 400 hours on record with the game and am still trying to find time in my schedule for yet another playthrough. My first completion of P4G was in 2012, technically, but the majority of those 400 hours are 2013 hours, so here you go.

It's one of the few games that upon thoroughly consuming has managed to change my philosophy and outlook on the world in some way. The game presents so earnestly its motif of personal truth in the second half of the game, one I took and apply to my everyday existence, and that is something which rarely happens to me from a video game (or any form of media). Add on to that the touching themes of friendship and determination, both submitted without sarcasm or cynicism, and even after multiple playthroughs I get wistful thinking of helping these teenagers through their teenage stuff, going to school with them and hanging out with them, all while saving the world (or at least Inaba, in all its comfortingly familiar small town glory). "Reaching out to the truth" is a beautiful theme for a story, and ultimately, everything in P4G assembles in order to be a story to you, the player, an informative tale on how to conduct your life, amidst its commentary on human nature and themes of truth vs. willful ignorance.

P4G's narrative does so much so well. To facilitate the sense that it is truly "you" in the story, it keeps the protagonist silent except for your responses and some response cues. The primary characters, both allies and enemies, are exceptionally well written, and much of that is due to each of them having realistic faults on display. The high school characters are pitch perfect, and even the final bosses succeed in honest dialogue as they present and explore the game's philosophy rather than chewing the scenery as is common in so many games.

persona 4 golden junes

The rest of the game is no slouch, either. I've come to appreciate that the SMT/Persona games are what I always wanted Pokemon to be — monster collecting with evolution mechanics and customization options, but also with the ability to undo what you have created without huge penalty. P4G's compendium makes playing with fusion a comfortable endeavor, avoiding punishing the player as they work on their perfect stable of shadow-killers. The game rewards clever play and intelligent planning over grinding, being perfectly happy to let you break the game over your knee if you figure out the nuance of its systems. And then it still throws some Atlus-hard bosses at you, because it can.

In a way, the entirety of the gameplay embraces the search for truth — the day-to-day slice-of-life side of the game is filled with activities, people to hang out with, and things to see that you might have missed at first. Minor NPCs tell their minor stories over the better part of a year, if you care to listen to them, and at any time you can stop and feed a stray cat or grab a soda from a vending machine before hanging out with the gang for the afternoon. (It suddenly dawned on me that this was a very fun aspect of Shenmue, which I also kind of miss in a way, so it is a sudden realization, but to no surprise, why I loved the minor pleasures of hanging around in Inaba.)

I could write about Persona 4 Golden forever, so I should probably stop here and save more for another longer article. If I had to pick a GOTY for 2013 it'd be this. It has changed me in ways I never imagined. I smile differently with friends, I observe the world with a more individual perspective, because of this game. Persona 4 Golden is beautiful, gorgeous, and a game I will love forever.

There you have it, a lot of the games I played in 2013. I'll try to keep up with this in 2014. I have a huge backlog and I'm currently playing through Ys: Memories of Celceta and Sorcery Saga: Curse of the Great Curry God, so expect to see those coming up.